Well As college continues I get more and more work to do and also there is my job wish is very tireing (is that the word?) Well and also my intestinal problem is getting worst by the minute with the exeption that it does not hurt anymore... I don;t mind talking about it but many people would find it gross and not apropiate so hehee If you'll like to know some details then ask me and I'll be happy to answer

me and jeff are alright... I'm still very paranoic but I'm trying to control it... I should never doubt that he truly loves me even when he dosn't say so.

I won't be able to be around much V__V But you can still write to my e-mail and got MSN too i don't get in too much cuz got no internet back at home.... but i still chek you guys when I can

Dragon_Illution@hotmail.com every Thursday & Friday I'll be on MSN (My dad's house)


oh well...
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Well... I was so exited about starting class cuz I was going to C my friends and all.... but I don't feel happy at all... Something is diferent but in a bad way... could it be hipocresy? I can sense something strange i don't know. Jeff & I are in the same college (Diffrent classes & Year) and during the first day I was so happy to have him around and I could C he was too. But now... he dosn't seem like it. 2 nights ago we did not talked but we saw eachother at college so it was ok, But the next day i did not See him nor talked... at all... he did not called... I didn't want to call him cuz I wanted him to search for me... for once... but nothing... so today I was hoping to C a happy expresion to C me or something.... but no.... he dosn;t give a crap.... he didn't even kissed me. In a sad way I Asked: - "Why didn't you called me, what happened?" - "Oh I just got out of work and went straight to bed" I don't think that is an excuse cus I got out of college at 2:00pm and he as well that day. So i expected that when i got home around 3:30pm... he would called at least for 1 min. cuz I did not See him..... I hate when he uses cheap excuses to be the solution of every problem... He still needs to mature. I had a nightmare las night.... That i got to college and found Jeff I was so happy to C him cuz we couldn't see eachother that day.... I hugged him and he was totally plain and cold. Pushed me away and said it was over... that he does not feels the same way anymore. I wokeup in tears and cried so damn loud that I almost awoke my cousing michelle (She was sleeping next to me) I had that deam 3 times that night I could not Sleep... everytime I fell as sleep... the dream turned to be jeff dumping me in a very cold way.... he got colder... when we are toghether you can count the times he touches me, kiss me or say something nice to me with one hand and still have enough finguers..... I'm sorry for all this complaining... I guess I'm a little paranoic... Jeff is not a bad person he is sweet and kind.... but when it comes to realationships.... it dosn't look like it. I don;t know why thou cuz he was not lika this... he had a strange moodswing..FU@#%^&* mood swing... and he changed for ever..... Jeff If you are reading this please forgive me... but I needed to take all this from my chest from a long time... I tried to talked to you about it a lot of times... but you never listen to me, and you get mad cuz you don't understand or even try to... *watery eyes* I love you more than everything in this world... never forget that NEVER! I'm willing to stand for US no matter what... but we need to talk about our problems... and we need to listen to eachother and accept our mistakes... we are both humans ya'know. Please forgive me don't get angry at me... but I couldn't hold it anymore. ................................I feel so pathetic.................................. oh well... chek this out :iconblissian: ~ he is my love and soul mate :date: :iconivybeth: ~ Jeff's and I best friend :hug: COLLEGE PEOPLE THEY ARE KOOL :D :icondark-mermaid::icondoodledanni::icondreamscreations::iconguelmo::iconmast3r-sword::iconanthros::iconKamui85::iconchupatoster::iconkompy::iconacid-stain::iconmr-backup: DA FRIENDS YOU MUST MEET THEM!! :iconchaypeta::iconunholydeath::iconebh::icondarkbear::icontoniserinn::iconyaoi-bear: PEOPLE I ADMIRE :worship: :crazy: :iconbelafantasy::iconaphanter::iconphilKusanagi::iconcro-lunatic::iconwolfgangcake::iconfinalfantasy::iconayamefataru::iconbibly::iconfio::iconcarneaglariel::iconryotin: :iconnanami-yuki: :iconbluepen::iconlince::iconparticle9::iconxi::iconsilverwolfboywinters::icontalesofeternia::iconbrownkuma::iconpu-sama::iconpbozproduction::iconcricket00fur::iconstrype::iconbleedman: NICE FRIENDS AND GOOD ARTISTS :D :iconbluetiger47::iconlooseprey::iconcheshire84::iconfirebandit::iconkenai-wolf::icondoodletowdents::iconbluenukl30u5::iconyamiforte::iconshenro::iconbitter-go0dbye:

Hi every one I'm sorry I havn't been around for a while but my job is killing me.. I get in at 10:00pm and I'm suppoused to get out at 2:00am but I really get out when everything is finished.... My first day I got out at 6:15am, Exouseted and sweaty.... And during the day all i do is sleep. I miss every one


My B-day is tomorrow July 20 :boggie: :cacke:
yey!!! I Will turn 20 now I still don't know what am I gonna do that day thou...


oh by the way... I think I will be doing comissions cuz I really am in bankrupesy this stupid job does not pay too good even thou I have to work my butt off... prices can be modyfied... don't worry... I wont masacre your pockets...promise




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I'm working in Old Navy ( PLaza las Americas)
I went a long time ago and filled their solicitud (that paper with your info)
I took the mmonths but they called and I had the interview for monday ^__^ I went all well dressed with a long sleave & Bottons shirt, dockers and nice shoes Seems like it helped They told me I have Training the next day ^_^ I took the training uesterday and it was lame, but kinda' fun... Today is the practical training and I start all on my own tomorow... the day of my anniversary (I will ask to work morning shift and have the afternoon)

I Can't believe its been already one full year since I heart exploted the words from my mouth (In spanish) TE AMO! Its such a strong word there is "Te Quiero" But a "Te Amo" Is the biggest word the tell someone you love him/her so
Still got no plans whatsoever, Don't know what to do. My normal job did not payed again. so I'm a little short of money. Still got to find the finest present for Jeff he deservs it.

happy anniversary for me!!


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chek this out

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~ Jeff's and I best friend

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